I'm going insane

[tarotgal]

I was writing another Sirius/Remus story a moment ago... and I suddenly got a flash concerning another story I was writing. Only I couldn't come up with what story it was. Yeah, I write a lot (especially with my non-sneezing stuff added in there) but ACK! I honestly could remember this whole scene, but had NO idea which characters were talking and what story it was I included it in. I had to do a phrase search within documents several times before I located it- in an unfinished work. But honestly, how sad is it when you know you've written something but you can't come up with where you wrote it and with what characters? GAH! I'm an idiot!!!

And I just finished watching Yami no Matsuei *sigh* Now that was good! Plenty of angst, a sea of slashy possibilities, and more bishies than you can count. And some humor here and there, too. Wow. I really enjoyed. What sweet guys! I mean, the good ones, of course. For a while I was a LITTLE worried that it was going to turn out like ai no kusabi and I *really* couldn't handle another sad thing tonight. But ahhhhh, nice ending. *has urge to rewatch whole series*

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But honestly, how sad is it when you know you've written something but you can't come up with where you wrote it and with what characters?
Given the size of your site? Not sad at all! I am amazed by how prolific you are...

For a while I was a LITTLE worried that it was going to turn out like ai no kusabi and I *really* couldn't handle another sad thing tonight.
Oh, I know what you mean. The thing that kept me from freaking out before the end was that there are 11? 12? volumes of the manga out (and it's still going as far as I know), the anime takes place fairly early on in the series, and the one that you worry about is one of the main characters so he has to survive.

[tarotgal]

Prolific= would rather write than do anything worthwhile :-)
Actually, I'd like to say I'm just a slacker, but honestly I think I'd go mad if some of these story ideas didn't get emptied out of my head from time to time. And I just feel bad if I go a day without writing.

I'd read a lot of complaints about YnM as far as the episodes as they didn't go as far as the manga does or get into as much detail on some of the characters. So I can understand that now- 11/12 volumes?! Wow! And it's nice to know there wasn't any early intention of killing them off. Ai no Kusabi... man... I wish I'd been prepared for that. I really got wrapped up in the characters and it broke my heart to see them die... even together... even though I knew there wasn't really another way to go... but ah! Just broke my heart!