Lots of Randomness...

[tarotgal]

I frequently do not remember my dreams when I wake up... or at least I don't after a few minutes. Had some BAD ones last night that I can't seem to shake, however. Usually in dreams I can tell it's a dream, so when bad stuff happens it doesn't hurt too much. Not last night, however. My whole family, including my favorite grandfather and John Candy (who isn't part of my family and is already dead, mind) was killed (long story having to do with aliens and a cafeteria and turning into envelopes...) and I spent the whole dream mourning and trying to figure out how I was ever going to finish my thesis after this and how they wouldn't be around to see what I did with my life, now, etc. I woke up practically sobbing and trying to cope with the loss and it was actually some time before I realized my family wasn't really dead and it had just been a dream.
I won't go into the details of the other dream... but I had to eat bacon. WTF? LOL
It was a VERY weird morning, to say the least.

I wrote yet another SW story last night. I had intended it to be a less-mushy sort of thing... which is hard because Qui and Obi are always so very snuggley in my mind. But halfway through I got to a point where the story could have gone in a completely different direction. So I'm going to write two versions of the story. One quite good and yummy and the other... well... rather angst-filled.
It's a fun experiment... albeit one I really don't have time to play with now. But I'll post them on LJ and site when I finish the second story (which should be shorter than the first at any rate)

I'm going to go defrost a PB&J and get back to thesis. Just thought I'd share my current mental instabilities LOL

Oh, and I've been meaning to say a few random things I just haven't wanted to bother putting in a full post:
-Robert's service on ER was SO sad. *hugs ELizabeth* That picture of the two of them in surgeon garb at the crash site really choked me up, too. Liz was right, he really didn't have ANYTHING but his work. It was his love. And he really did deserve better... even if he wasn't always the most cheery towards it... it was still something he loved and he died giving his all to it *sob*
-I really love 'Joan of Arcadia'. The concept's weird, and not usually my thing, but it's done in such an interesting way(like a seinfeld episode without that kind of comedy), and the characters are fantastic. I never fail to both laugh and cry during most episodes. Though I WISH I hadn't missed the episode where she smashes Adam's sculpture. It was SO important to the series, and I don't understand why/how she had to do it now! Gah!
-I still have that snowed-in feeling even though it hasn't snowed for 2 days. I just haven't gone outside to see that all the snow in the front has been cleared away. I don't want to ruin this yummy feeling and I have cleared my sched until now to stay in and do work anyway :-)

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I thought that maybe Elizabeth's words to Carrie about Robert having nothing but his work were meant as some kind of warning to her - like a bog kick in the hiney telling her "DO NOT LET THIS BE YOU IN A FEW YEARS!!"...it was a very sad service though although I think you and I both feel that same way but for very different reasons...

BUT I imagine that something we can both agree on is that it will be a MUST WATCH next week to see John return to County General...and I cannot wait to find out what has been going on with his love life since we saw him last! Looks like there is indeed news on that front!

What do you think the chances are that Kovac will end up with Samantha? I thought the meanest thing that anyone said during the last episode was when Sam said to Luka "You're not a father so you wouldn't understand"...or something like that. Luka shook it off, but it must have torn up his heart..of COURSE he is still a father...you don't stop being a father just because your child(ren) have died! That had to hurt...

Liked your commments on the "Swash, swash, buckle, buckle" from Orlando too - he is too cute! Something on which my daughter and I can both agree!!!

Patti

[tarotgal]

I don't know... I feel a lot of things about the service, and Robert's death. And I really admire people who are able to put their all into their work, or into some part of their life. I think his passion- even if it resulted in him being an ass(as most tv/real? surgeons are)- is very honorable. I personally wouldn't mind dying doing something I love.
On the other hand, I DON'T think that's something Elizabeth wants. And it's not what she has. And I think this will really make her understand better what she wants and needs out of life. I still think he should have had more people, there. There's a line from QaF I think about how if you don't earn respect in life you're not entitled to it in death. But I can respect a lot about Robert... including the pain and his fighting to overcome it (not easy losing the ability to do what you're most passionate about, or being "in love" with someone who keeps bouncing around to other people on the show for sex over many years) I can think of people who have made a lot worse decisions on the show than Robert. I still would have liked to at least heard some apology for the jokes about him last week. Grr!
But, yes, I agree with you about Karrie's words to Elizabeth.
I'm just feeling a lot of things about it... I really liked his character- he was really rounded... and real...

Anyway, I am interested to see Carter back, but not as much as I thought I'd be. I don't know... I think I've had so much heartache over him that it's hard for me to try and get all worked up again. Everything goes through such cycles on the show that I know it's going to go bad again for him eventually...

Oh, and that line to Luka about his children! RIGHT ON! I was in shock- my cat could tell you- mouth wide and everything. And the look on his face! My gods! It's not his fault his children are dead! He tried so hard to keep them alive and gah! Yes, he IS a father. And he understands that better than she can... but I didn't see the episodes where she was introduced so I don't know how much she knows about that. Still, she's not the world's greatest mother either, and it wasn't a very nice thing to say. Poor Luka... maybe it's just because I like to imagine him as one, but I can REALLY see him as wanting a family. Someone to take care of, someone to love him unconditionally. He's not had a very good track record since he moved to Chicago, but under it all, I really do see that desire there to be a father again. He seems to fit into the role so well. *sigh*


*has sudden desire to watch PotC bloopers again!* Oli's just too adorably funny.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm not sure I believe you...put your cat on the net so I can double check your veracity with him (her?)!!! Hee-hee! It was my daughter with me when I just got that same look on my face....horrified...anyway...


Yes, funny how that urge to watch incredibly good looking guys can hit us women at any given moment...I think that it's important to "go with" those urges!!


Patti

[(Anonymous)]

I can't wait to see John back! The actor is finally back after his wife had a baby, and all in good time too!
~Annalisa

Odd dreams...

[ladykorana.livejournal.com]

I can relate to you in the bad dreams department. Last night I had a dream that my little brother was diagnosed with cancer, and then the dream proceeded to cover time as his illness progressed and it was so bizarrely realistic that I woke up really frightened...usually I just dream of strange things like me winding up pregnant when there's no chance in hell of that happening anytime soon, or bizarre natural disasters like volcanoes in my backyard when I live in the midwest, or little rows of minature tornadoes chasing me down. Once in a blue moon I wake up in a cold sweat after dreaming about some killer virus like in 'The Stand'...but cancer..that's just too real to brush off as easily. I hope I never have a dream like that again.

Re: Odd dreams...

[tarotgal]

Ohhh I'm sorry!!!
Yikes... yes, I completely agree, realistic dreams like that are *not* pleasant. Yikes... a dream like that would have freaked me out.
I actually went right to the phone and called my parents to be sure everything was allright. I've never had a prophitic dream before, but I didn't want that to be the first time.
I usually(99% of the time) have what I call "quest" dreams, where I have to accomplish something or do/find something and the whole "plot" of the dream hinges on me doing that.
But usually those things are so increibly silly or fantastical that it might be work, but it doesn't feel realistic, either.

The Stand... gods, I still have trouble watching the first hour or two of that series. I always have to hide behind a pillow or something.

Re: Odd dreams...

[ladykorana.livejournal.com]

'The Stand' remains the only Stephen King book I have ever read. I saw the miniseries first...it scared the living daylights out of me, mostly because of the very plausible nature of the virus's release and spread, the panic and attempts to contain it. That combined with the overlying religious tone is what really did it.

I watched the miniseries several times after the first time, knowing that I shouldn't, that it would only mess with my head more to see it again, but I felt strangely compelled...

I ended up living with the subsequent terror for several years before I was able to get over it. I'm not very religious, but it had me praying several times a day that such a thing would never happen, or if it did, I would die quickly so I wouldn't have to face the aftermath. I was afraid to sleep for fear that I would see glowing red eyes, or warped scenes from the movie in my dreams. I was afraid cornfields for awhile, and I live near a great many of them. And that song, 'Don't Fear the Reaper'...hearing it during the day used to be enough to trigger nightmares that evening. One night, my brother came into my room when I was listening to the radio and told me to change the station (we often let each other know when our favorite songs were on other stations) and that song was playing and I was about ready to kill him!

So anyway, that's a taste of what 'The Stand' did to me. I'm still afraid to see copies of it in stores when I'm looking at DVD's, but I can watch selected parts of it without too much trouble. Ok, you can call me a freak now! *G*