Ug...

I didn't get anything done today... well, caught up on e-mails, slept, watched tv, did the recycling and some shopping and ate dinners, but that's it.

Oh, and started yet another fanfic. I have this sudden obsession with guys flipping. No idea where it came from. Was planning on it in my Percy/Oliver fic (because a sick Oliver just begs to be mounted) but I suddenly found myself writing another "Remus in Heat" fic with it being the central theme. Or maybe I'm just feeling uncreative today and am instead just writing the same thing over and over again with different characters? *hangs head in shame*

Oh well... it's still fun. I'm dying to finish my Percy/Oliver fic... I'm calling it 'Promises' after a Highlander... fourth season episode I think it is.

But these wolfish Remus stories are taking over right now. I'm having terrible visions of Tsume/Remus or Kiba/Remus cross-overs... which is weird, because out of the four main lads on Wolf's Rain, it's the other two who are my favorite. heehee! Ah well. Wish I had more time to write.

Annoying Stories...

OK... so I'm in this phase right now as far as my writings. I like being in phases... gives me something else to think about when driving and showering without having to think about what to think about.

Anyway, I've got this story that just sprung into my head... and I can't get rid of it. It's begging me to be written, and it's not at all a bad story. In fact, it'd be a fun read. The problem is, it's Remus/Severus. I've never had the desire to cross house lines when slashing before. It's just never appealed to me. And now, well, it still doesn't appeal to me. I keep telling them that NO it's not what I want to write. I think of Remus/Sirius as a one true pairing and I don't WANT to pair one of them (especially my favorite of the two) up with SNAPE of all people! Yeech! Bleh! But the story keeps pushing at me. It keeps telling me that Remus SHOULD shag Snape senseless. And I keep shuddering as the imagery pops into my head.
So right now I'm torn. Can I actually write a story that sickens me? Should I? Gah!

What if this sends me down a road of pairings I cannot stand? What if I start writing Lucius/Harry fics? Or Ginny/Tom fics? Or... or Ron/Draco fics? *shudder* I'm perfectly happy staying within house lines, as much as I think people of other houses have a right to have relationships! Why the HECK does my muse want me to write Remus/Severus?

First the plot bunnies bring me WAY too many ideas. Now they bombard me with a pairing I'm not into and don't want to be into. I'd sooner write Snape/Giant Squid! (Mmmm move those tentacles, baby! LOL) Ugh. I'm absolutely furious with my bunnies. And I think I'm just going to have to buckle down and write it and get these images out of my head for good. But not tomorrow. Tomorrow I have to work my butt off *sigh*

Harry Potter 5

*sob*

I just finished listening to the Order of the Phoenix. I think I cried even more this time than when I read it. Just something about hearing about the death makes it feel a little more final. And all of Harry's mouring at the end just brought me to tears constantly. I still don't think it's the last we'll see of the character... but when Lupin's voice cracked, it just KILLED me *sob*
Harry's really grown up so much in this book- that kindness to Luna at the end really gets to me now... especially after finding more out about Snape.

*sigh* What a sad book. I'm still crying. Both happy and sad tears, you know? I was really unsure about the book the first time I read it. Lots of people still think it's not well written and all that... but after the second "read" I'm much more taken by it. Sad, but still enjoyed it. *sniffles* Good book.

I think I'm going to set Jim to start at the beginning of the series again in a little bit, and relisten to it in order, one after the other. I learned a lot about GoF doing that... I dunno... Honestly, I still sob terribly about Cedric- this is exponentially worse. *sigh* I wish I could write something that touches people this way one day. I mean, I made my teachers cry over a passage from my novel... but as that was years ago and the damn thing probably won't ever be finished or published, that isn't saying very much. Ah well. *sigh* Off to contemplate Remus/Severus again.