Good news and bad news
Aug. 13th, 2008 11:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tarotgalGood news: Hope I'm not jinxing it, but my muse is back. In full force. I have 5 pages of a brand new Torchwood coldfic to show for it. I can't stop writing. MAN I love this feeling. Where there's nothing I want to do- not sleep or work or anything- as much as I want to get these fics out of me. JUST in time for my vacation to start. I hope this feeling sticks around until Friday afternoon!!!
Bad news: I can't fall asleep at night. I'm too wound up with stuff. Usually I can fall asleep in about 20-30 seconds. Now it takes an hour or two. So I'm getting NO sleep and I'm falling asleep at my desk. But I can't do anything about it. Grr. I will be SO happy when my staycation starts and I can sleep in as long as I need. I have SUCH a headache right now from being sleep-deprived. I just can't handle 3-5 hours of sleep only a night, every night.
Not sure how to feel about it news: I'm kind of worried about the training I'm going to Thursday and Friday. I'm afraid it's going to be way over my head. Apparently the site description and catalog description vary and the latter says I need to know some SQL. The only SQL I know is that SQL exists. Plus we'll be using completely different software and databases than I do at work... hopefully there will be some things that are architecture & platform independent. But I'm worried that I'm going to fail miserably at the class and be one of those people I secretly laugh at when I take these courses and they can't keep up and follow what's going on. And given my very likely lack of sleep, I can't rely on the fact that I'm a very quick learner to get me through. Plus it's been so long since I sat down and wrote code from scratchy-scratch. It's like riding a bike... but in this case it's like I learned how to ride a bike a while ago... now someone's expecting me to ride a motorcycle on the moon. Kinda the same but mostly different enough to make me worried.
Good news: I finished the second Twilight book tonight. Yay.
Bad news: I got a DVD in the mail today from Blockbuster Online. Sleeve and queue says it was suppose to be the second disc of Earth 2 (a show I LOVED when I was younger and am really enjoying watching again- it'll show up in sneezefic some time, I promise, LOL) but I popped it in the DVD player and it was the first disc all over again! *sad* They'll send me the right one, but that'll take days. And I wanted to watch it tonight! *pouts*
Not sure how to feel about it news: Registration for the next Highlander Convention opened today. It's in LA, and that's a ways away from me over here in Virginia. I really *shouldn't* go. It'll be about $1,500. And I make money and can afford it if I have to. But it's not the responsible thing for me to do. Highlander will always always ALWAYS be my first true fandom obsession love. And if it were closer, I wouldn't hesitate. But... that's 1/15th of a condo downpayment. I just don't know if I can do it, just to relive the joy of my favorite fandom. I KNOW I would enjoy myself and have the time of my life. I know I would remember for the rest of my life meeting Adrian Paul for the first time. I know it would be a great thing to go. But I there are so many other fandoms I love soooo much now, and I'm having fun with those, too. I just don't know if it would be worth it. Arg. I just don't know what to do. And my head hurts too much to think clearly.
More good news: The HP Alliance interest meeting tonight was good. We're going to be focusing on literacy, music in the schools, and random magical acts of kindness including working at a women's shelter and helping with food drives. The girls leading it are in college, so quite a few years younger than I am. But I'm happy to sit back and help out and get my volunteering itch scratched in the name of needy causes and Harry Potter.
Okay. I REALLY want to write more Torchwood fic. There's a scene I am DESPERATE to write. But head hurts too much and I keep nodding off (I should just sleep in front of the computer, sitting in my desk chair. As soon as I lie down, I'm wide awake- LOL). Gonna go shower and change cats' water dishes and lie down now, I think. And hope class tomorrow goes okay. *crosses fingers*
Bad news: I can't fall asleep at night. I'm too wound up with stuff. Usually I can fall asleep in about 20-30 seconds. Now it takes an hour or two. So I'm getting NO sleep and I'm falling asleep at my desk. But I can't do anything about it. Grr. I will be SO happy when my staycation starts and I can sleep in as long as I need. I have SUCH a headache right now from being sleep-deprived. I just can't handle 3-5 hours of sleep only a night, every night.
Not sure how to feel about it news: I'm kind of worried about the training I'm going to Thursday and Friday. I'm afraid it's going to be way over my head. Apparently the site description and catalog description vary and the latter says I need to know some SQL. The only SQL I know is that SQL exists. Plus we'll be using completely different software and databases than I do at work... hopefully there will be some things that are architecture & platform independent. But I'm worried that I'm going to fail miserably at the class and be one of those people I secretly laugh at when I take these courses and they can't keep up and follow what's going on. And given my very likely lack of sleep, I can't rely on the fact that I'm a very quick learner to get me through. Plus it's been so long since I sat down and wrote code from scratchy-scratch. It's like riding a bike... but in this case it's like I learned how to ride a bike a while ago... now someone's expecting me to ride a motorcycle on the moon. Kinda the same but mostly different enough to make me worried.
Good news: I finished the second Twilight book tonight. Yay.
Bad news: I got a DVD in the mail today from Blockbuster Online. Sleeve and queue says it was suppose to be the second disc of Earth 2 (a show I LOVED when I was younger and am really enjoying watching again- it'll show up in sneezefic some time, I promise, LOL) but I popped it in the DVD player and it was the first disc all over again! *sad* They'll send me the right one, but that'll take days. And I wanted to watch it tonight! *pouts*
Not sure how to feel about it news: Registration for the next Highlander Convention opened today. It's in LA, and that's a ways away from me over here in Virginia. I really *shouldn't* go. It'll be about $1,500. And I make money and can afford it if I have to. But it's not the responsible thing for me to do. Highlander will always always ALWAYS be my first true fandom obsession love. And if it were closer, I wouldn't hesitate. But... that's 1/15th of a condo downpayment. I just don't know if I can do it, just to relive the joy of my favorite fandom. I KNOW I would enjoy myself and have the time of my life. I know I would remember for the rest of my life meeting Adrian Paul for the first time. I know it would be a great thing to go. But I there are so many other fandoms I love soooo much now, and I'm having fun with those, too. I just don't know if it would be worth it. Arg. I just don't know what to do. And my head hurts too much to think clearly.
More good news: The HP Alliance interest meeting tonight was good. We're going to be focusing on literacy, music in the schools, and random magical acts of kindness including working at a women's shelter and helping with food drives. The girls leading it are in college, so quite a few years younger than I am. But I'm happy to sit back and help out and get my volunteering itch scratched in the name of needy causes and Harry Potter.
Okay. I REALLY want to write more Torchwood fic. There's a scene I am DESPERATE to write. But head hurts too much and I keep nodding off (I should just sleep in front of the computer, sitting in my desk chair. As soon as I lie down, I'm wide awake- LOL). Gonna go shower and change cats' water dishes and lie down now, I think. And hope class tomorrow goes okay. *crosses fingers*
