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tarotgalI am officially a community college student. That's right: high school, 4-year college, grad school, crappy jobs, a real job, and now... community college? heehee I feel like I'm going backward. But I'm also very excited about learning a component of web development that wasn't really around when I was in college but that I desperately must know in order to develop the site we have now at work. I'm getting tired of sending emails to our consultant to have him fix something I inadvertantly broke or figure out where I went wrong in my code (usually I have it 97% correct and I just miss one little thing in a controller or helper or model or entity or something). So I'm hoping this course will make me feel more confident in my abilities.
I'm a bit scared, though. The last time I was in a real college course I had a mental breakdown. Yesterday, when looking at the syllabus, I almost had a panic attack, but was able to head it off with some coping techniques. Yay for therapy and learning from my past mistakes. Today the course officially started and I'm halfway through lesson one and feeling VERY good. I scored a 58% on the pre-course quiz for the instructor to see what our knowledge set is like (granted, two of the dozen questions were identical, and I got them wrong both times, so it's probably more like a 60-something%, but that's still a failing grade here in this county LOL). But I feel good that I actually knew more than half of the answers to the questions! I was super worried about how I'd feel about the course, but I feel good. The first lesson is a lot of hand-holding, which is both helpful and precisely what I needed.
I still feel like shite, physically. I am relatively sure I will never breathe through my nose again. LOL But at least I'm feeling good enough to sit at a computer for a few minutes without getting dizzy, which is what my day has been like. I actually fell out of my chair earlier when I was super dizzy and slept on the floor for about half an hour. So embarrassing. And I'm So glad I didn't go to work today. Even though there is SO MUCH that needed to get done.
EDIT: I just scored 100% on my lesson 1 quiz. BOOYAH!
I'm a bit scared, though. The last time I was in a real college course I had a mental breakdown. Yesterday, when looking at the syllabus, I almost had a panic attack, but was able to head it off with some coping techniques. Yay for therapy and learning from my past mistakes. Today the course officially started and I'm halfway through lesson one and feeling VERY good. I scored a 58% on the pre-course quiz for the instructor to see what our knowledge set is like (granted, two of the dozen questions were identical, and I got them wrong both times, so it's probably more like a 60-something%, but that's still a failing grade here in this county LOL). But I feel good that I actually knew more than half of the answers to the questions! I was super worried about how I'd feel about the course, but I feel good. The first lesson is a lot of hand-holding, which is both helpful and precisely what I needed.
I still feel like shite, physically. I am relatively sure I will never breathe through my nose again. LOL But at least I'm feeling good enough to sit at a computer for a few minutes without getting dizzy, which is what my day has been like. I actually fell out of my chair earlier when I was super dizzy and slept on the floor for about half an hour. So embarrassing. And I'm So glad I didn't go to work today. Even though there is SO MUCH that needed to get done.
EDIT: I just scored 100% on my lesson 1 quiz. BOOYAH!
