Bad start to the year
Jan. 4th, 2016 09:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tarotgalThis is me venting/complaining. Feel free to ignore.
So far, this year has sucked. I had a my only good day yesterday--the annual BookCrossing holiday party and then my friends came over to meet my new cats and exchange gifts. That's definitely been the bright spot so far this year. Health-wise, I think I have something seriously not good going on, and today it's hitting pretty effing hard. I'm thinking it might be that my headaches are progressing to migrane status. Or maybe my anemia is making them worse. Fantastic timing because this afternoon we had to put one of my family's cats to sleep. Benji (the diabetic one who's been struggling with kidney disease for a while now on top of ear infections, dietary allergies, and a bit of arthritis) went to the emergency vet on New Year's day and was discharged briefly, then taken back. Apparently, it was something liver-related and his white blood cells were through the roof and not one of the half a dozen doctors on staff had ever seen anything like it. I don't actually know all the details, because Mom cried every time she started to explain. But the long & short of it is, after several days of trying all they could, he was beyond help. So that's been tough today. I knew it was going to happen soon, but Benji was the first cat my parents got in the new group of animals and it's so tough to watch him go. He was so social and loved everyone who walked in the door (a huge change from when we got him and he wouldn't come out from under the couch for 2 weeks; he was feral and didn't know how to be petted/touched). It's been 17-18 years, though, and it really was time. Doesn't make it any easier. And then I come home and I'm so incredibly sick I had to crawl from room to room because I was so dizzy and my head hurt so much I was feeling sick everywhere. UGH. I think part of it is being dehydrated. I didn't drink, um, like anything at all today and I've been doing so much crying. So my eyes are killing me. I'm trying to drink, but it's hard when I feel sick and can't sit up. UGH. I'm a mess tonight. Just needed to vent. The only good thing is, all my blankets are in one place, on the floor of my blanket fort, so I've been shivery and can just burrow under them like my Charlie cat does without having to go up to the bedroom.
Here are some photos of my Benji Boo Boo kitty kitty. God, I miss him already. Losing three animals in, what, 3 months? 4?
So far, this year has sucked. I had a my only good day yesterday--the annual BookCrossing holiday party and then my friends came over to meet my new cats and exchange gifts. That's definitely been the bright spot so far this year. Health-wise, I think I have something seriously not good going on, and today it's hitting pretty effing hard. I'm thinking it might be that my headaches are progressing to migrane status. Or maybe my anemia is making them worse. Fantastic timing because this afternoon we had to put one of my family's cats to sleep. Benji (the diabetic one who's been struggling with kidney disease for a while now on top of ear infections, dietary allergies, and a bit of arthritis) went to the emergency vet on New Year's day and was discharged briefly, then taken back. Apparently, it was something liver-related and his white blood cells were through the roof and not one of the half a dozen doctors on staff had ever seen anything like it. I don't actually know all the details, because Mom cried every time she started to explain. But the long & short of it is, after several days of trying all they could, he was beyond help. So that's been tough today. I knew it was going to happen soon, but Benji was the first cat my parents got in the new group of animals and it's so tough to watch him go. He was so social and loved everyone who walked in the door (a huge change from when we got him and he wouldn't come out from under the couch for 2 weeks; he was feral and didn't know how to be petted/touched). It's been 17-18 years, though, and it really was time. Doesn't make it any easier. And then I come home and I'm so incredibly sick I had to crawl from room to room because I was so dizzy and my head hurt so much I was feeling sick everywhere. UGH. I think part of it is being dehydrated. I didn't drink, um, like anything at all today and I've been doing so much crying. So my eyes are killing me. I'm trying to drink, but it's hard when I feel sick and can't sit up. UGH. I'm a mess tonight. Just needed to vent. The only good thing is, all my blankets are in one place, on the floor of my blanket fort, so I've been shivery and can just burrow under them like my Charlie cat does without having to go up to the bedroom.
Here are some photos of my Benji Boo Boo kitty kitty. God, I miss him already. Losing three animals in, what, 3 months? 4?
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Date: 2016-01-05 02:57 am (UTC)Sorry about your kitty - that must be so hard to lose several pets in such a short time. But like I've said before, from what you've written about them, it sounds like you and your family gave them wonderful lives. It's awesome to hear that he went from being unpettable to so friendly and social. I hope that's some comfort in the midst of grieving for him. *big hugs*
And I'm sorry you're feeling so yucky, too! I hope you start feeling better soon. Dizziness and dehydration are no fun at all - hope the fluids and rest helps. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help. I'm here if you want to talk or vent or anything, too.
Thinking good thoughts your way. *more hugs*
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Date: 2016-01-05 04:34 am (UTC)If you'd like, prompt a story, and I'll fill it for you in hopes that you feel better.
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Date: 2016-01-05 04:35 am (UTC)So hopefully you can muster one up! Go as crazy/dirty/weird as you want!
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Date: 2016-01-05 09:23 am (UTC)For what it's worth, Benji looks like a seriously happy, chilled out dude. It sounds like you all brought a lot of happiness into his life.
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Date: 2016-01-05 06:22 pm (UTC)Few things are as hard as losing a furry family member. He looks like such a sweet guy and gorgeous too. Sounds like you were lucky to have each other, as I'm sure he benefitted from your family's care, as much as he brought joy to your lives for so long. And for you to feel so bad physically, on top of it all...
*HUGE HUGS*
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Date: 2016-01-07 01:40 am (UTC)