My September, So Far
Sep. 19th, 2019 08:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tarotgalMy month has been about as wonderful and terrible as it could be. I'm barely hanging on at the moment. The only thing keeping me going is momentum. I'm worried that the second I slow down, it's all going to hit and I won't be able to get out of bed. So I'm keeping myself moving, making every second of my day count. It's all I can do right now.
The National Book Festival was utterly fantastic. So glad I went this year.
The Hufflepuff-themed tea was also wonderful. SO MUCH good food. I came home with enough scones to last me for a week and a giant jar of pumpkin honey. It was also such a great feeling to just be in my own common room. I never got that from the Harry Potter books, so it was marvelous to feel it in person. Granted, many of the decorations came from my own home, from throw pillows to Hufflepuff cups. But there was something special about being in a room full of plants and badgers with everything black and white.
I went to a LEGOLAND promo at National Harbor on Labor Day then proceeded to spend 2 hours walking across a bridge and back. Unfortunately, I wasn't dressed for the occasion and got sunburned badly on the back of my neck, got painful blisters, and felt pain in my hips I haven't felt since before my hip surgery. So... I kind of broke myself. It was a strange way to start the month.
This month, I'm doing THREE Challenges:
The challenges are helping me put my energy into something achievable that I can control. My workplace right now is spiraling out of control and has given me all the feels lately--from optimistic to terrified. I have given more hugs this month to coworkers than in the last year total. And I've spent time sitting in the stairwell at work sobbing. I even ended up skipping a poetry group meeting this month because I was too much of an emotional rollar coaster that night after work. Next week is a staff retreat, so hopefully that will help build morale and get us moving in some unified direction. Right now we're just lost and working hard to keep our heads above water and make sure the services we give our members is uninterrupted. At least we have each other to rely on in this time, because we aren't legally allowed to talk about any of the details.
I also finally got caught up with 101 Things in 1001 Days goals. I have accomplished two this month, and I'm on track to finish a third by the end of the month. (I need to finish three a month to stay on par, and last month I finished 0, so any buffer I built myself evaporated entirely). And I got mostly (but not completely) caught up in my bullet journal. I still have the convention pages to fill out, and I skipped my health tracker last month and this month, but otherwise, I'm on track again. That's SUCH a good feeling.
So the rest of my month will be spent struggling at work, trying to avoid a complete mental breakdown that I feel nibbling at me, and working hard in my personal time to keep from wallowing in despair.
I'm still working out every day (haven't missed a day yet). I'm still volunteering at the library (which is SO necessary and calming and full of a comforting order). I took Ozma to the vet for her annual yesterday, and I've been spending a lot of time playing with and giving attention to my cats; just enjoying all the moments they choose to spend with me. I have a BookCrossing meetup this weekend and a sneeze fetish RPG next weekend. I'm working on another story in the background (it's a couple pages right now, but I decided yesterday I need to rework part of it before I get any further into it. I also have a Harry Potter meetup group meeting next week on the topic of mental health, which probably couldn't have come at a better time, frankly, as mine is in such a fragile state.
I started a rewatch of Time Trax this week, a show that younger me ADORED. I'm only up to episode 2 of the first season, but I'm so glad I chose now to do a proper rewatch. I needed this in my life. Last night, I took myself to the movies for discount movie night and finalyl saw IT. I LOVED the movie. The jokes at Stephen King's expense were done so well. The ships were strong. The ending was SO MUCH BETTER and ended in what is probably my favorite thing in the world: a clusterhug. That movie was DEFINITELY what I needed last night. I've loved those characters for decades, and to see them get to be heroes on the big screen was so uplifting. Tonight, I'm planning on going to see Yesterday, finally, at another discount movie theater.
And, speaking of yesterday, I took some photos of me for Banned Books Week yesterday. Look at me getting things done ahead of time rather than forgetting and waiting until the last minute! So proud of me. Gotta keep working and moving. Can't stop for an instant. Gotta keep pushing on. Speaking of which, this is my official theme song for the month:
The National Book Festival was utterly fantastic. So glad I went this year.
The Hufflepuff-themed tea was also wonderful. SO MUCH good food. I came home with enough scones to last me for a week and a giant jar of pumpkin honey. It was also such a great feeling to just be in my own common room. I never got that from the Harry Potter books, so it was marvelous to feel it in person. Granted, many of the decorations came from my own home, from throw pillows to Hufflepuff cups. But there was something special about being in a room full of plants and badgers with everything black and white.
I went to a LEGOLAND promo at National Harbor on Labor Day then proceeded to spend 2 hours walking across a bridge and back. Unfortunately, I wasn't dressed for the occasion and got sunburned badly on the back of my neck, got painful blisters, and felt pain in my hips I haven't felt since before my hip surgery. So... I kind of broke myself. It was a strange way to start the month.
This month, I'm doing THREE Challenges:
- Hogwarts House Battle Reading Challenge- I signed up under Hufflepuff, of course. The idea is to track pages read on a daily basis. There are also weekly instagram/youtube challenges, reading books of specific types that correspond with Hogwarts classes, and reading specific books chosen by the challenge hosts that correspond with our houses. So far I've done an excellent job of accumulating more than 3,000 points. I've finished 16 books and I'm on my way to completing 100% of the class challenges and 100% of the weekly challenges.
- Promptember 2019- cowboyguy put together a list of prompt words, and I've been writing a short ficlet every day for those. I'm posting them on AO3 and Pillowfort, mostly to just learn how Pillowfort works. I haven't missed a day yet, though it has NOT been easy on days when I don't get home until after 9. There's a wonderful magic in writing every day, though, so that has made me feel really good. And some of the pieces of turned out nicely. Some of the pieces I completely half-assed, but the point is that I wrote and finished a short thing every single day. Makes me feel good and productive!
- LBAG- One of my LEGO Brickfair friends and I decided that a big problem in our life was that we only build with LEGO right before Brickfair. I have a whole room in my house dedicated to the hobby, and lately I haven't even been unpacking from the convention until 2 or 3 years later. That's problematic. So we created a LEGO Builder Accountability Group where we each set a monthly goal and support each other to achieve it. So far, I have made some progress on mine, which I feel good about. But there's still a ways to go, and I'm running out of September at this rate. LOL
The challenges are helping me put my energy into something achievable that I can control. My workplace right now is spiraling out of control and has given me all the feels lately--from optimistic to terrified. I have given more hugs this month to coworkers than in the last year total. And I've spent time sitting in the stairwell at work sobbing. I even ended up skipping a poetry group meeting this month because I was too much of an emotional rollar coaster that night after work. Next week is a staff retreat, so hopefully that will help build morale and get us moving in some unified direction. Right now we're just lost and working hard to keep our heads above water and make sure the services we give our members is uninterrupted. At least we have each other to rely on in this time, because we aren't legally allowed to talk about any of the details.
I also finally got caught up with 101 Things in 1001 Days goals. I have accomplished two this month, and I'm on track to finish a third by the end of the month. (I need to finish three a month to stay on par, and last month I finished 0, so any buffer I built myself evaporated entirely). And I got mostly (but not completely) caught up in my bullet journal. I still have the convention pages to fill out, and I skipped my health tracker last month and this month, but otherwise, I'm on track again. That's SUCH a good feeling.
So the rest of my month will be spent struggling at work, trying to avoid a complete mental breakdown that I feel nibbling at me, and working hard in my personal time to keep from wallowing in despair.
I'm still working out every day (haven't missed a day yet). I'm still volunteering at the library (which is SO necessary and calming and full of a comforting order). I took Ozma to the vet for her annual yesterday, and I've been spending a lot of time playing with and giving attention to my cats; just enjoying all the moments they choose to spend with me. I have a BookCrossing meetup this weekend and a sneeze fetish RPG next weekend. I'm working on another story in the background (it's a couple pages right now, but I decided yesterday I need to rework part of it before I get any further into it. I also have a Harry Potter meetup group meeting next week on the topic of mental health, which probably couldn't have come at a better time, frankly, as mine is in such a fragile state.
I started a rewatch of Time Trax this week, a show that younger me ADORED. I'm only up to episode 2 of the first season, but I'm so glad I chose now to do a proper rewatch. I needed this in my life. Last night, I took myself to the movies for discount movie night and finalyl saw IT. I LOVED the movie. The jokes at Stephen King's expense were done so well. The ships were strong. The ending was SO MUCH BETTER and ended in what is probably my favorite thing in the world: a clusterhug. That movie was DEFINITELY what I needed last night. I've loved those characters for decades, and to see them get to be heroes on the big screen was so uplifting. Tonight, I'm planning on going to see Yesterday, finally, at another discount movie theater.
And, speaking of yesterday, I took some photos of me for Banned Books Week yesterday. Look at me getting things done ahead of time rather than forgetting and waiting until the last minute! So proud of me. Gotta keep working and moving. Can't stop for an instant. Gotta keep pushing on. Speaking of which, this is my official theme song for the month:
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Date: 2019-09-20 01:35 am (UTC)