*sigh*

[tarotgal]

Twas a very good night *sigh* Boyfriend's cold is very yummy indeed. Today he told me in detail of a rather "explosive" fit of 5 sneezes in a row he had just after getting off the phone with me the night before. Damnit. I have terrible timing. But he had one very nice one over the phone. His sneezes are usually so fast and short I can't enjoy them, but this one was lovely with a very breathy build-up and an extended release. Sex tonight was fantastic. Best orgasm I've ever had(er, best one while sober). At least, the first one was, the second one wasn't bad though *G* LOL I won't go into the gritty details and all but he's SUCH a sweetie for letting me have sex with him when he's all sick and sneezing. And he played it up a little, just for me. He was sniffling constantly which is what finally sent me over the edge. Sooo yummy-sexy :-) Oh, MAN but he's cute when he's sick, my boy! And he's the sweetest guy in the world to understand about my fetish and humor me. He always says how nice it is to know that even when he's miserable like this, he turns me on. Though I had to remind him I don't mind when he has to blow his nose. Though the sniffling is WAY cuter to me, the poor guy kept hiding and going into the other room or sniffling when we were in the car because he was embarrassed to blow his nose in front of me. I finally explained that, within the context of his cold, I enjoyed it and not to worry (after which I pointed him towards the tissues in the glove compartment) and he said something like "Oh, okay, then I won't feel bad about blowing my nose any more when I need to. My nose is just so stuffy." *sigh* He did the whole "I'm sick and need someone to mother me" thing on the phone last night, too. Cutie. I repeatedly tell him I do feel sorry that he's sick, though, and wish him to feel better. But he knows I'm turned on while saying it. LOL

Anyhoo... I realized I missed watching Judging Amy last night. What the heck was I watching at that time, I wonder? Must have been Queer Eye... damn. I'm an idiot. I always watch the later showing of QESG so I can see Judging Amy at 10. Even though that's at 12am and I watch Witch Hunter Robin then. So I have to bump that up and watch/tape that at 3am instead. I don't know why I suddenly deviated from that. I've been doing it for 3 or 4 weeks now just fine. Damn. I feel stupid to have missed it now :-(
Okay... I'm REALLY tired, oddly. I wanted to finish writing the Legolas and Aragorn story... LOL that sounds like a name for a television show... or a movie of the week... LOL But I'm not sure I can stay awake long enough to be awake when I tape Cowboy BeBop, let alone concentrate on writing a good story. Tiiiiiired.

I'm downloading the second episode of Veritas: The Quest. Did anyone but me ever watch that show? I really liked it. All, what, 6 episodes? LOL *checks* Damn... they made 13 episodes but only 4 got aired before it was cancelled(oohhh but two of the unaired episodes are available online... ohhhhh... must go look for these!). I think that's worse than Dinatopia did! *checks* Yep. It was worse. Dinatopia had 6 episodes aired and Veritas only 4. Don't know how many were filmed, though. Anyhoo... The second episode of Veritas was great. Their jet crashes in Antactica... lots of snow and cold... lots of angst... hurt cute men... people saving each other from almost certain death. Yes, lots of yummy elements. I'm thinking of making a music video to it if I can find an appropriate song. Yummy yummy cute men all cold and hurt...

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[madeleinemaria.livejournal.com]

oooooooooh don't you just love when sex is like that?! :) :)

[tarotgal]

Mmmm much much. It so rarely is. :-)

[tarotgal]

Boyfriend... um... he's the cute, geeky, quirky type. Tallish and thin.... Light brown hair(it's sort of a so dirty blond it's brown kind of thing), slightly balding... yummy goatee... er... yeah. That's him. He's a cutie. *snuggles* And yep, very yummy when he's sick and sniffley.

As for sex, I think some people make too big a deal about it. Virginity is a concept people invented because they understood the problem of people multiplying like bunnies and women left to be pregnant without ways to take care of themselves. Nowadays with ample amounts of birth control and protection methods, the concept is unimportant and rather pointless. If you handle a situation responsibly, and want to express your caring for someone, there's no reason to think it's immoral. People think of it at this great thing. Behold the lady's virginity. I've always thought the concept of virginity was a big load of crap. Sex is just another thing in life to enjoy. Like eating ice cream or travelling to another city. Just another thing to experience and enjoy responsibly when it feels like the thing to do. Boyfriend had a bit of that good ol' classic Catholic Guilt on the subject when I met him, but after a year or so, it was time. Not that it was entirely easy for me at first, we definitely had our problems in that department but helped each other through it. But it was never this big "losing our virginity" thing or some crap about it being the "right time" or the "one special person". Again, all outdated man-made culture-created ideas that really don't have any relevance to me with the world as it is now. It was just having sex with someone I cared about, and enjoying what life has to offer.
As for not having sex until being married... I DEFINITELY don't subscribe to that. I never intend to be married. And I've no problem "living in sin" forever, especially since I don't think the act of making love is a sin, it's just an expression of how much another person pleases you and how much you care for them. That could never be bad in my opinion. :-) (Note- rape and all its non-con flavors is not making love)

[tarotgal]

And that's totally great. It's totally about what feels right and when you're ready. I just think people make way too big a deal out of it. Which is fine in some instances- kids should absolutely know when things are appropriate and how to be safe and protect themselves- but other times it's this big thing that's scary. I definitely believe in people being doing it only when it feels right... and in playing safe 100% of the time.
Unfortunately, most of our society doesn't feel that way. And thinks things like nudity and sex are horrible things... whereas violent deaths and graphic murders aren't so bad *sigh* Makes no sense to me.
Boyfriend and I were talking about that just last night, actually. How one republican congressman objected to the showing of Schindler's List on tv because they showed nudity and it had bad language. He apparently had no problem with graphic images of people being tortured and slaughtered. But the nudity, whoo! How horrible for people to see that! *rolls eyes*

[eowyngreenleaf.livejournal.com]

(hehe im tricksy ;) using my other LJ name to reply).

i think my biggest issue with sex is fearing how much it'll hurt. i have low pain tollerance (cant even use a darned tampon), so i think that's one of the main reasons why im hesitant to do it anytime soon. i dont know if my attitude will change in the future (im kind of hoping it does because i would like to experience it, though not with the intention of having children if it happens to be when im married etc.)

i agree though, people *do* make a big deal about sex and nudity-->i admit that i was totally squicked at a few pictures in a porn magazine i was flipping through by accident at work (well, not even flipping through--it was the front cover lol), but most of the time i dont mine watching nudity scenes ("Put your hands on me Jack" ;)). they give you kind of an emotional high when you watch them. but other than that, im quite happy remaining a virgin for the time being. :) luckily my boyfriend feels the same way...he doesnt ever push me into the idea of having sex.

[tarotgal]

Ah! *gets all confused by your multiple personas* LOL :-)

Yeah, I'd never, ever condone people pressuring others into having sex. (Luckily, neither does my boyfriend) I think it's just wrong to ask it of people in general. It either feels right and you do it, or nothing. But no pressure. With my fetish(es) and all the pr0n I write, I definitely think I've got a mind which is a lot dirtier than my boyfriend's.

As for hurting... damn, yes. And it was(and still is but not to the same extent) more painful to me than to most people. I was never able to wear tampons until I started having sex. But if you get turned on and use enough lubricant, the pain is so minimal. Boyfriend still has to go slow with me sometimes, but the point is he's caring and understanding and as long as he's careful at first, it barely hurts at all. And when it does, it's good hurting. But, yeah. I have a VERY low pain threshhold. Boyfriend always jokes with me, saying that everything he does hurts me(I have very weak ribs- I can't lie on my stomach for long without it hurting, for example) But even so, it was very good for me to hear that others felt pain for a while when having sex (not just the first time). But EVERYONE is different. For me, after years, I still hurt sometimes. But after a while, the pleasure of it is worth a little hurting... and Boyfriend is a very careful and considerate lover. That's VERY important.

And there are things you can do to make it easier. I won't go into any more detail as I've probably skicked you enough in this post already! LOL Sorry. But don't let yourself be afraid of the pain. It's really not *that* bad. I can think of a lot of things I've experienced that feel physically worse. But I do understand where you're coming from since I certainly had my share of problems in that department. heehee Even now sometimes tampons hurt. And as cliche as it sounds, after a while, you enjoy the sensations so much that you forget the pain entirely. Er, if he's doing it right, at least. Which isn't necessarily always... but you know what I mean.

[ladykorana.livejournal.com]

Whew, that's a relief to hear that others have the same problem. I can't use tampons either...I only did it twice in high school when we had to swim for gym class and I didn't want to lose points for sitting out, and the whole time, it was terrible.

About sex: I freely admit that I'm a 25-year-old virgin (just turned 25 yesterday!), and the main reason I haven't had sex yet is that I just haven't found a single guy that I felt close enough to be comfortable with the idea of him touching me in such an intimate manner, with the exception of a good friend who came out as bisexual (with very strong homosexual leanings...like 80%/20% if he had to weigh his gender preferences) just as soon as I got good and relaxed in his company. Luckily, he's still my best male friend, and we have a blast watching Queer As Folk together!

I also suspect that my love of historical, sci-fi, and fantasy epics, and fanfiction in general has really pushed my expectations of romance and falling in love to a level that I can never achieve it in real life. Intense circumstances that draw couples together (e.g. X-Files, Stargate, SW, etc.) don't generally happen to a modern-day hospital pharmacist like me. I also admit my taste in guys is unrealistic. I want a Legolas, a Daniel Jackson, and guys like him just don't exist in real life, and even if they did, the chances of them falling for average looking, slightly overweight LadyKorana are slim at best. Ah well, at least I have my adorable kitty-cat Eowyn to keep me company!

[eowyngreenleaf.livejournal.com]

actually, lol, (whoops--different LJ name again!) the ticket guy at the movie theater last night said "I'm really going to guess here that you two are brother and sister". *smirk* we look SO much alike it's scary. ;)

[eowyngreenleaf.livejournal.com]

actually, lol, (whoops--different LJ name again!) the ticket guy at the movie theater last night said "I'm really going to guess here that you two are brother and sister". *smirk* we look SO much alike it's scary. ;)

(ack responded to my own response! x_x)

[tarotgal]

I *know* I have unrealistic expectactions of romance and love due to all I read in my childhood. And I'm sure my ideas on the subject have not improved any since then with all the fandoms I'm into where the couples are just too incredible and their love is so strong to overcome obsticles. *sigh*

As for sex... I didn't have it until I was 21... though I'd done other intimate stuff before that. So I was pretty late, compared to the national average (but Boyfriend was 26 so hey, I beat him! LOL Though his excuse was the Catholic Guilt, not because he didn't feel it was time) It's ALL about when it feels right, though. I've had sex a number of times when it didn't feel right and it isn't a pleasant experience. LOL Te concept itself is still not that big a deal to me... but it's definitely big enough that if you don't feel comfortable, don't go near it :-) The point is for it to be enjoyable and intimate, after all.

*sigh* You lucky chica. I'm a fag-less fag hag at the moment. My boys seem to like moving away. Wonder what that says about me? LOL But your friend sounds wonderful *sigh* What I wouldn't give to have someone to watch QAF with :-) My boyfriend won't go near it, even when I try to entice him with the lesbians and the fact that it turns me on. Nope. Won't do it. Silly guy. It's probably as close as I'll ever get to watching actual porn, so it's his loss! :-)

And as for tampons- dear GODS am I glad we didn't have a pool or swimming in school!!! I would have been mortified! And as to Hermione's comment about being "looser" after having sex- I'm not really. I'm about as tight as I ever was... but I'm more used to the, er, sensation, which makes it easier for me to wear tampons now. Though sometimes I still can't, er, make it work. (Sorry- TMI???) One of my best friends from high school still can't wear them... and my other best friend (who has already slept with more guys than I will probably ever) wears tampons without even needing an applicator. Which boggles my mind. LOL It amazes me how different people can be physically, but it's nice to know there are many others with the same problems as I have.

[tarotgal]

Nope, you didn't at all. You were perfectly clear. I think it's the sign of a very thoughtful and considerate person who can see that something isn't wrong and accpet people for it but understand that it doesn't mean she feels ready or wants to go right out and have it :-)