Ug

[tarotgal]

My last post made no sense. I'm stressed and exhausted (it's past 7am... which is technically an hour after I wanted to be in bed)
Maybe I should just finish my coding for the night and sleep before I do any more public damage to myself. LOL!

I still maintain that for all my years of writing, I'm a damn coward when it comes to delurking and posting fanfics. But, honestly... isn't lurkerdom safe & comfy? No fear of rejection... lots of self-delusions...
In a class I took a year ago I had a raging debate with someone over the concept of a lurker. The concept was that lurkers are horrible- that if you don't contribute anything what's the point of existing? I was trying to explain that if you don't exist to lurk at all, there's no hope of ever delurking to participate. Yeah. So that's me. Clinging to my hope that one day I'll build up the courage.
Well, we'll see :-)

Night y'all :-)
*off to finish another page of code before bed*

Comments

Ahh, the life of a lurker...

[rainbowbluebird.livejournal.com]

I agree with you! One of the main reasons I lurk [other than being a total chicken] is that I cling to the hope that one wonderful day I'll be able to post one of my fics. I don't know why I'm so scared...maybe because I lurk in so many places and am all to aware of the amount of horrible fics out there! [come on, we've all stumbled on them] Some day I know I'll be brave enough to post my work, I know I will! But for now I'll be lurking [anywhere and everywhere]
Good luck with your coding TG!

BVB

Re: Ahh, the life of a lurker...

[tarotgal]

YAY! Go lurkers!!!
Seriously, though, can you imagine how much membership would drop on most lists and groups and communities if lurkers were not allowed? I always heard it was 10 lurkers to 1 active member on average. In more specialized groups (ones where contribution of actual items rather than just opinions is important) I bet it's a lot more.

And yes, I think you got it perfectly right- I've read a TON of horrible fics- and written a few myself (well, maybe not horrible, but certainly not good!) And I know how painful it is for reviewers to try to be nice in reponse or just blast back with brutally honest opinions... I dunno if I could handle that from a group of people who are virtually strangers. I mean, even if they say nothing at all, I know they'll be thinking it. I don't want to be that person who makes them read something so terrible of mine.
Ug... do they offer self help groups for fanfic writers who want to delurk but are too scared to? :-) Maybe I should start one... LOL!