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[tarotgal]

Having sort of a mental break-down at the moment. Have no money, don't know how I'm going to pay bills. No job. No idea of what I'm doing. Will proabbly end up moving back home in a couple months without a job. Still not done with thesis and it's a month and a half late. I'm freaking out. Completely. Hey... when you go and apply for stupid jobs at stores and things, where do you go to do that? Do you ask to see a manager or talk to anyone and get an application or what? I've never worked in retail before... but I'm getting damn desperate for money at this point and since I don't sleep any more, I can work what people consider to be normal hours. Heh. Thanks.

Anyway, point of this was to say I might not be able to write a Friday fic this week. Which is sad and depressing since I already started it this morning. But I'm having trouble keeping hands from shaking enough to type and I keep bursting into tears or having mini panic attacks where I can't catch my breath... so I'm not making any promises about writing :-) Just thought I'd say so before it got late and I regretted not saying anything.

Okay, that's all. I know part of my freaking-out-ness has to do with it being my time of the month- I'm sure that's why it's hitting me to such an extent. But I just feel like I'm really in trouble and there's nothing I can do. Heh. Not fun. Not fun at all. Anyhoo... I shall go hide in a corner now and stop shaking. Just wanted to post and ask that stupid question (I'm an idiot, I know nothing) and mention the fact that I might not be writing a story. But who knows, maybe I will in an attempt to calm down. We'll see. No need for sympathy or anything, I'm beyond that at this point. :-)

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[rainbowbluebird.livejournal.com]

Oh Honey...

[big hug] [even bigger hug]

I'm so sorry you're having a bad time. I know you're probably beyond platitudes at this point, but you've always tried to make me feel better when I'm stressing about something. Sometimes life has a way of just sucking horribly no matter how hard we try. But things do get better [gods, I sound like my mother], I promise. You will finish your thesis, and get a job, and all that other stuff that goes along with it.

Am I being trite? I hope not, heaven knows I know exactly where you're coming from. You're a very talented person, who will one day share their gifts with society as a whole. Try to relax.

I'm sorry if this got preachy or anything. I hope I didn't offend you in some way. You've just impacted so many of our lives...you are wonderful-remember that.
Blessed Be.
Christine

[silverelf.livejournal.com]

I won't give you sympathy, or tell you how it's all going to be all right. Because, yeah, I don't know that it will be. But, I will offer hugs, and a shoulder should you need it. Or a punching bag. I've got thick skin. ;)

As for the question as to where to apply to -- it depends on the store. If you're thinking a big place like Wal-Mart or TJ Maxx or something, try the Customer Service desk and ask about it there. And if it's more a little in-the-mall store, just ask an employee if you can drop off a resume. That's my advice. :)

Good luck, and don't you dare think about writing if you're not in the mood. We all love your stories, but we want you to be happy and healthy more than we want to be entertained.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm so sorry that things are rough, a bit rough for me too...!
Okay, so here's where you can find a job:
1. Try the internet, it can tell you who's hiring, etc.
2. The newspaper! Full of places that are hiring!
3. Look for signs that say that they're hiring and get an app.
Well, whatever you do, I know you'll be fine. You're a talented and reourceful person, i know you'll get a job soon!
Good luck, * i know how you feel, i need one as well,*
~A

[(Anonymous)]

I just read "front to back" and let me just say, wow! I loved it! Legolas was absolutely perfect! Aragorn too! It's so great, that I honestly can't think of a way to offer you some critique! It's been a while since I've found a Lotr story that I've been really into, but this one had me hooked! Didn't read the next one yet, but will as soon as I finish this! I am delighted and quite impressed. The description was awesome! I got so cold and tired from reading this, I seriously feel so much empathy for Legolas! You can tell that your writing is absolutely amazing when the readers feel what the characters feel. Amazing Tg!
~A

[tarotgal]

*G* Awww, that's fantastic- thank you much for such praise. It's great to know you enjoyed it so much. I got tired while writing it, so I definitely know what you mean about feeling the characters... I'm so glad that came out so strongly for you while reading it.