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[tarotgal]

Having sort of a mental break-down at the moment. Have no money, don't know how I'm going to pay bills. No job. No idea of what I'm doing. Will proabbly end up moving back home in a couple months without a job. Still not done with thesis and it's a month and a half late. I'm freaking out. Completely. Hey... when you go and apply for stupid jobs at stores and things, where do you go to do that? Do you ask to see a manager or talk to anyone and get an application or what? I've never worked in retail before... but I'm getting damn desperate for money at this point and since I don't sleep any more, I can work what people consider to be normal hours. Heh. Thanks.

Anyway, point of this was to say I might not be able to write a Friday fic this week. Which is sad and depressing since I already started it this morning. But I'm having trouble keeping hands from shaking enough to type and I keep bursting into tears or having mini panic attacks where I can't catch my breath... so I'm not making any promises about writing :-) Just thought I'd say so before it got late and I regretted not saying anything.

Okay, that's all. I know part of my freaking-out-ness has to do with it being my time of the month- I'm sure that's why it's hitting me to such an extent. But I just feel like I'm really in trouble and there's nothing I can do. Heh. Not fun. Not fun at all. Anyhoo... I shall go hide in a corner now and stop shaking. Just wanted to post and ask that stupid question (I'm an idiot, I know nothing) and mention the fact that I might not be writing a story. But who knows, maybe I will in an attempt to calm down. We'll see. No need for sympathy or anything, I'm beyond that at this point. :-)

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[silverelf.livejournal.com]

I won't give you sympathy, or tell you how it's all going to be all right. Because, yeah, I don't know that it will be. But, I will offer hugs, and a shoulder should you need it. Or a punching bag. I've got thick skin. ;)

As for the question as to where to apply to -- it depends on the store. If you're thinking a big place like Wal-Mart or TJ Maxx or something, try the Customer Service desk and ask about it there. And if it's more a little in-the-mall store, just ask an employee if you can drop off a resume. That's my advice. :)

Good luck, and don't you dare think about writing if you're not in the mood. We all love your stories, but we want you to be happy and healthy more than we want to be entertained.